Caring sucks

[Blackmage]

Why does it seem like everything I ever try to care about fall to pieces?

My job... I used to love my job despite how much I complain about it I like it. It's just the people who don't care that I work with that make it so hard and fusterating or the customers who come in and steal things etc.

My car, I love it to death, I love driving it, but it seems like something always happens to whatever I drive. It's going to cost me $1600 to get my frame pulled on my car :/

Family, I was going to see my grandmother before she passed away from cancer, she died the night I figured out how to afford going out there.

My girlfriend treates me like I'm just a friend as opposed to her boyfriend.

My friends, some of them are two faced or fake. I'm tired of people trying to patronize me, if you want to be my friend tell me, if you don't want to talk to me and be my friend tell me and leave me alone. I hate having someone I think is a friend that turns out to either stab me in the back or just didn't really want to be friends in the first place. I try to help my friends becuase I care about them.

Video games, I bearly even find joy in them anymore. What gives?

Theres probably several other things I could add to the list but I'm tired, extremely fusterated at myself, and dissapointed in life. I've had a long day, 10hrs of school, 4 Final Exams, a conversation I know I was going to have but was always to neive to think it was going to happen, and got an estimate on my car.

[Kudasai Hiroki]

Ah, It's been one of THOSE days huh?

When I was just out of high school I had lots of "friends". Over time I began to see who many of them really were. Today I call three of those people my friends and they are very dear to my heart.

There are days when I would give anything to be able to quit my job. But most of the time I love what I do. It's the same everywhere. There will always be something or someone(s) who will make life difficult wherever you go. Like any experience, many people will add to it what they will but it's what you make of it that matters.

What the heck did you do to your car to have the frame pulled?!!
I know how you feel about the car though. I drive an old Jeep Cherokee that's always falling apart but I'd never get rid of it. Plus it's paid off and fixing it is still cheaper than a car payment!

Look man, I'm sorry your having a rough time. It happens to all of us. I'll tell you a little story that begins like this...
... This one time in Baghdad ( I just wanted to say that!)
Seriously, I'm a tank mechanic and my 6 co workers and I were in northern Baghdad in 2003. We brought some of the oldest tanks in the Army and they kept us plenty buisy. One of them had a leaking fuel cell. We had to remove everything out of the back of the tank and four of the rear hubs to get this fuel cell out and put the new one in. It's a 24 hour straight job! Upon completion of the fuel cell we get the call that one of the tanks had broken down out in the city so we had to go get it. there's another 7 hours there. When we get back we find three more tanks that had showed up for maintenance. Will the madness never end. Finally, after nearly two full days of working I'm getting ready to get some sleep when I find out that I have to go on patrol. There's another 4 hours of walking through the city!
The point is I was pissed. I thought somehow I'd pissed some god off!
I seemed nothing was going right and every second that ticked something else was happening that was making life harder as if it wasn't hard enough already!
But now my friends and I look back on those times and laugh! It was so hard then but now, when we're faced with what seems like overwhelming obstacles to others, we laugh because we know how hard it can be.

You'll get through this man. And you'll be stronger because of these experiences. I know it sucks now, but It'll get better.

[Blackmage]

I rear ended a truck in stop and go traffic doing 5~10mph... trailer hitches don't give....
Yeah but this has been kinda a constant on-going deal for the last couple years... Sometimes not nearly as bad. It's bad when your mother tells "If you if it wasn't for bad luck you'd have no luck at all."

[Venus]

geez, im sorry that happened to you!!! that sounds awful! I really dont know what to say to you because im not good at talking down thngs lol and i dont wanna say something stupid..but just know im always here if you wanna talk ^_^

[Hoth]

Whoa Whoa Whoa, I leave for one night and you get all depressive on me! *cries. I can only show love in so many places.

Dood! You and I.. as soon as I get anna off to another job are working on that shit. I is here for yah!

[shadokastur]

[Doot]

Heya mister.

I know it all seems for lost at the moment but chin up as Charlotte the spider says. I've had many a time I've evaluated everything around me and sometimes just came up so empty handed in how I felt (like I gave a damn) and it made me turn back to myself and encourages me every day to make sure the amount I put into this life is equal to what I get in return. I'm still stumbling through it too but it's the conscious effor that helps. You are a great person Dustin, with such a good heart. I hope this helps a little bit. If not, I'll need to send you some more Swift thistle.

(As a side note: I'm sorry I was a good bit out of it on Saturday when we were at the Faire - heat intensity and the flu and bronchitis don't mix so I was a good bit spacey.)

[Tobias]

*Turns on Toy Story Soundtrack*

"You've got a friend in me."

Senor, when the going gets tough, the tough get going. Caring is something that people like us do becuase we know it counts. I know some people that dont give a damn, and it turns me off to them. Don't stop caring...it gives you the edge, and really gives you character.

Further, I know how to relate to your work-stress. I love my job too, and seriously, there are times when i wish it would just disappear and leave me alone. But hey, i show up anyway, i show people how to make drinks, and i kick teh cafe ass.

[Satine]

*loves teh Blackmage*
Like Kudasai said, it's one of those days. I know them all too well.
Hang in there, man. It seems like all the stress is getting to you. Give yourself a little time to decompress.
Although I feel you on the car thing--I wasn't even home from school for two weeks when some lady hit me and messed up my front suspension.
Keep toughing this out. You'll be fine.
I'm always around if you want to talk or something.

[Yunni]

Arg, I feel bad - you said hi on AIM when I accidently logged on ;; I wasn't intending to be on AIM ;; BUT -- I should really get back into the habit of logging on and chatting on AIM o.o, especially now I have no univerisity until september!