School...<sigh> - Tobias' adventures in school

[Senkir]

Lets see.... High school.... it feels like so long ago, but it really wasn't.


Be it my demeanor, or some other factor, i really bare no mallice towards the people of my school. Whether they be students or teachers. Granted there are people that i didn't like, and people that probably didn't like me, but not to the point of me wishing some kind of painful death to befall them. I guess thats just me, though.

I was always sort of a loner, and moved from crowd to crowd with relative obscurity. At the time it felt like sort of an outcast thing, but in retrospect i was basically accepted into the areas where i went. My school was pretty cool like that, i guess.

...or maybe i enjoyed some kind of social immunity on account of not being a part of any of the warring factions. Who knows.

I was sort of depressed in general, though, but that wasn't really a problem that stemmed from the school. That was because of some other issues entirely. Well... mostly. Senior year was pretty stressful because i had to figure out what i was doing with my life. Hah! Not like i'm entirely sure now, but it seemed so boding and important at the time that i be absolutely sure.

*ahem* But really, your whole perspective changes after Highschool, somehow. I know it sounds silly, but its really true. Some of the things that seemed really important before don't seem to matter anymore, and so forth.

I do agree with BWS-1, though. It always seems so much clearer afterward, when you're pretty sure exactly what went wrong. *dreamy look*

What i do think is that you shouldn't get so worked up over labels. "preppies", "jocks", "Goths", "wanabes" It really doesn't matter, when you get right down to it. Divisions are just silly to me.

*cough* but i digress. You were saying something about mayonaise

[Tobias]

Ahh, homework, the bain of my existence...i wish it never existed.

Not only do we have to sit in school for 6+ hours, but my school is insane, whereas we need to go for the bus at 6:50 in the MORNING!!!! School starts at 7:30 in the MORNING, because of all of the extra curricular things that go on after school. so i get home at 2:15, only to be faced with HOMEWORK FOR ANOTHER 1-2 HOURS!!!! ITS NOT FAIR!!!

Quite frankly, i think that people would actually like school better if they were to not have to do homework.

Also, just incase u guys didnt relize from looking at the time i wrote this, i am currently in school, suffering, in my free period, not knowing what to do...

Oh well, maybe i'll go turn some backpacks inside out

oh and by the way...Mayonasse is funny, as well as cheesecake

And Cal, im not the type of person that like theater or anything really relating to theater to join Players. Maybe if I was a little different, whereas i was a little more extroverted from my normal self, i would then probably join players with people like Mini Torska, and even mini burnham (if she is in players[u would have to consult ted on that one])

I think that the extra curricular activity of Co-Prezzy of the Culinary club is fun enough for me, and also, i like coming home after school.

Think about it though (i may sound slightly hypocritical here) what would u do in the free time that u got if u didnt go to school? Quite frankly, i think i would just veg and play Vid Games all day, or just senselessly sleep for the whole day (not saying sleep is bad)

[Tobias]

Senkia, i really like ur look on things.

I kind of a loner myself. I have my own little group of friends that really dont fall into any of the clicques (i think i spelled that right) in school. Instead, i kind of just wander from group to group, just looking at everything. Quite frankly, labels really arent that true in my school (mainly because my school only manufactures perfect people or defects and the occasional average joe[me and my group of friends]) All i know is that instead of going on making fun of the groups, instead take a look at it, and see the good points instead of the bad points of these things. Ive come up with this mentality after knowing someone that falls into the complete opposite of the description that i gave u.

[BWS-1]

the amount of friends I used to have in High-school was between 0 to 2 ... and that was like, twices more as I used to have in elementary school ... o wait, I think I really had 2 friends in elementary school once ... but when they moved away, I fell in lonelyness, but I kinda liked it. It allowed me to be more mature then others, but at the same time, I realized I was not fully living my yought (spell?). I think it somewhat affected me, but not in a bad nor good way ... that was kind of a neutral experience for me.

[GAAZ]

I still think imagining people dying is the best route to go. I remember Elementary school...I had like 10 friends...In HS I had like 5...Now I have 1! It sux, all my friends either moved or are dicks now... So remember, all them friends you have in HS now will stab you in the back later...hehehe

[BWS-1]

AzVegeta wrote:

So remember, all them friends you have in HS now will stab you in the back later...hehehe

Az, that is so, almost, totally true. Most of my friends got into drugs and never wanted to get out, or, like you said, stabed me in the back. Take a look at my scars!

*takes off T-shirt





Ok, ok, I'll put it back gees

[GAAZ]

Oh yeah, friends are great at the time but friends are the people you let into your life and get closer to you than pretty much all yer family so they know EXACTLY where all your vulnerable spots are. So when they stab ya they twist the knife and it don't feel good. But good thing I'm a guy cause I have the ability to bottle my anger until one day I snap and go on a killing spree or simply beat the crap outta the knife wielder.

[Senkir]

Heh. I know its not all happy smiling dreams. I have my share of scars... literally, actually.

I just have this stance these days about how wishing people would die is silly. Be it in the school arena, or outside, in the outer world, there are certainly more productive things to say. These days it seems like i'm always reading about some tragic piece of news in a forum (or what have you), and then there are a series of responses about how violent deaths should befal the participants.

It just..... pains me.... somehow....

*sigh* its hard to describe.

I just..

Feel that there are so many factors involved in any incident. Reasons that lead to an action, whether that action be positive or atrocious (sp?).

I don't know...

i think this whole reply is rather off topic. I appoligize.

[ edit] hmm... i feel like i've said this before.

[BWS-1]

[Tobias]

Quote:

The news are all focused on being BAD news ... so they are a depressive factor in our society, that's sad, but that's somewhat true.

Extremely true. its as my father says, "no one stops to see a beautiful sunset or sunrise, but they will pile in to see a killing, or slow down to see a car crash (damn traffic)"

As for the feelings of killings, i discarded those a long time ago, and actually, ive applied Vash's mentality to my life in a way:

No one has the right to take the life of anything, no matter what they do(i may be wrong in the quote cal tell me if its right or wrong

And since i have that mentality, i feel a little bit better about myself, that i dont want people to die or rot, or whatnot