Emotions and the insanity of it all

Blackmage

I know a lot of people including myself generally give off a stable outwardly emotional apperence, or well stable compairing to the normal of society. But does anyone ever feel that inwardly they have no control of how they feel? That their emotions just kinda run rampant on the inside, you try and supress things or bring out things but in a fruitless effort?

Andsectoid · Router Monkey of DOOM!!! Gender: Joined: 18 Sep 2003

FawkesFyre · Posted: Wed Oct 18, 2006 7:44 pm Post subject:

I wouldn't say that I have no control over how I really feel BUT, I am definitly one of those who can put up a good front for the sake of others. I don't really like verbalizing my feelings even to my closest friends.

I guess you could say that my "instability comes out in the physical rather than the mental side of me...my desk at work isn't the neatest in the world and I feel like my house is stuck in a constant cycle of chaos. My mind swims b/c there's so much to be done but not enough time or motivation to get it done.

Akanari · Owns your reality Gender: Joined: 29 Sep 2004

The only thing we can heal is that which hurts, so, well, yeah.

I'm more emotional now than I ever have been, and it first scared me, but now, now, I realize what I've been missing.

The Italians have it right. Cry on your doorstep and sing to the neighbors.

Blackmage · Posted: Wed Oct 18, 2006 8:35 pm Post subject:

Not so much in need of healing... just understanding of myself. Which is something I've been working on for the past month and a half or so. Figuring out what I want in life... and just random emotional things is something I wanted to know if everyone else was like that is why I asked,

A trip of self discovery and figuring out how I work. It's been rather interesting and I've decided that after I graduate school and get some time in my chosen profession I'm moving back to Calif and I beleive my parents are doing so as soon as my Dad retires.

Tobias · *explodes* Age: 38 Gender: Joined: 17 Jan 2003

Remember that emotions are as strong as the person who wields them. Control follows suite.

I've learned to use my emotions in my everyday life. They enhance things, make colors brighter, make things taste sweeter, hell, they make life more involving.

Emotions can run rampant somtimes...it's what happens when we don't pay enough attention to them. We need to have a little uncontrolled emotion in life though; it's healthy.

Take it from me.

That is all

Ming · DOOM! Gender: Joined: 13 Jan 2003

Yeah. I'm usually good at hiding my emotions to all but the closest to me. But while there is a lot of internal conflict within me, particularly lately, I wouldn't say that I don't have full control of my emotions. Althought sometimes what's going on inside will affect what goes on outside.

Kudasai Hiroki · Posted: Thu Oct 19, 2006 6:02 am Post subject:

Tobs hit the nail on the head. Emotions are a part of life. They're a part of you and who you are. You will never be rid of them or only feel the ones you want. You will feel all emotions at all times and sometimes they may be quite overwhelming. But it's all in how you control and use these emotions. I have two poems on my DA page that are full of hate, fear, sadness, loathing and rage that I wrote years ago when I was led by my emotions. It took several life-altering events for me to learn to control my emotions. That doesn't mean I feel them any less. It means they influence what I decide but not decide for me. You have already achieved the frist and most important step in controlling yourself, realizing that your emotions are out of control is something most people refuse to believe. I know it sounds twelve-stepish but it's true! I for one commend you for being insightful enough to recognize the need for controll and the fortitude to seek it.
Good luck Dude!

Hoth · Guitarist Gender: Joined: 10 Oct 2002

Silver Adept · Otaku Lord Age: 41 Gender: Joined: 20 May 2003

If I haven't shared this with you before, it fits here (and in a lot of other places, too.)

One of my professors likened students (and life) to being in a duck pond. On top of the water, it looks like every duck is gliding along effortlessly, serenely, beautifully. Take a peek underneath the water, however, and you see that it's quite the opposite case - the ducks do a lot of work kicking and churning water just to stay afloat. It's the same with people - the outside looks calm and graceful, the inside can be wracked with emotion and difficulty. Everyone, to themselves, looks like a wreck. To everyone else, though, you look just fine.

Tobs is right - expression of emotion is what allows it to be controlled. So letting it out is sometimes your best option. And you'll probably feel better about it when you do.