Depression

ZG35 · Junior Otaku Gender: Joined: 04 Oct 2003

Yeah.. feelin pretty shitty right now so decided to write it down, reply opr not, don't really care about this topic just want to write the shit the fuck down.

Lately I have been discovering that I am very inexperienced for my age, and also have few options as to who I can date. Tonight I find out that one of my really good friends is dating a sleazebag and none of us (her friends) will be able to convince her otherwise. Also her older sister who is also my really good friend who I also kinda like is going out with someone, which started a couple days ago and I found out now. In addition I have a girl who is hard to deal with cause she is not terribly attractive pyhsically, emotionally or mentally, and she follows me around like a freaking puppy dog. Last year I tried to flirt back but as soon as she realizes I am she starts ignoring me. Now this year I can't do shit all about it, can't be an SOB cold ass mofo cause I am too nice, and can't go after her cause she will do that to me again.

So yeah, that and this stupid fucking play i am in is getting progressively worse, and we perform next week. Plus today I had to suck up to a retired teacher (who also happens to be our costume person) and had to, not only go with her, but have her drive me to salvation army thriftstore to buy shoes, but it was my goddamn block off!

Now I find out one of my friends online from WA was just raped and beat by her brother, who is now in jail for 8 years. She was gone for the last week with no word and I got realy worried, but there is nothing I can do cause I am in BC. (several hours drive away). Feeling useless and such.

So yeah that sums up most of my current fucked up problems, oh don't forget failing math and almost failing english IB. I feel safer posting on here cuase only Motts knows me IRL and I trust him a lot not to talk abotu this. Yeah so ttyl all (BTW not looking for help particularily, but if you want to try go ahead, just needed to get it down)

Tobias · *explodes* Age: 38 Gender: Joined: 17 Jan 2003

wow...talk about the negative. Dude, i extend to you the courtesy i extend to every one else. If you need to talk to anyone on the net, feel free to drop me a line. If there is anything i can do, just let me know. Besides htat, you are in my prayers. I hope that everything straightens out man

That is all Hmmm

ZG35 · Junior Otaku Gender: Joined: 04 Oct 2003

Thanks man. I might take you up on that if things get worse. But yeah I forgot to mention one "minor" detail.

i also have probably the worst bug goin through me that I have ever had. I got yellow flem coming out of my mouth and npose. I didn't mention it last post cause I was on Blessed Nyquil *murmurs 'Blessed be the Nyquil OHMMMM'*

Anywho feelin much betta tonight now that I got some sleep. Thanks again! God I love the internet

Shandriz · Your Death Shall be Swift Gender: Joined: 28 Sep 2003

Awww, pet, I hope everything starts looking up soon. *hugs* You know we're all here for you if you need us ^_^

Lewis Black · Lewis M.S. Black Joined: 07 Oct 2003

I lost 50 last night because #4 decided to pull back. F****ing horse! I bomb your house idioth! You have a stupid face! You get punch to your face! Evil or Very Mad

Tobias · *explodes* Age: 38 Gender: Joined: 17 Jan 2003

wow...thats why i dont gamble Very Happy

that is all Hmmm

Lewis Black · Lewis M.S. Black Joined: 07 Oct 2003

Good boy Toby. Now I gotta work over time. Damn you horse. I shall get my revenge! My revenge you hear!

Look at my avatar! Look at his hand! It is raised in a villan like manner! You know I will have my revenge because my hand is like so! FEAR ME! Tremble! Grrrrr!

Terin · Huzzah! Gender: Joined: 27 Oct 2003

Lewis, I'm putting that in my siggie, cuz I liked it so much.

*edit*
I usually do retardedly fun things when I get depressed. When I was a senior in HS, this kid used to pick on me. HE WAS A FRESHMAN. Anyway, it was the same class, he wouldn't so much pick on me, more like just be a smartass. Nobody really liked him, but I talked to him cuz he didn't seem that bad. Well, one morning he asked me for help on a geometry problem. I helped him out, and he said, "you don't know what you're talking about." and went up to ask the teacher. So I took his bookbag and opened the door to the hallway and slide it waaaaaaaaay down the hall. Then I went back and sat down. He didn't even realize it was gone for like, 20 minutes. The lesson I was taught: Some people are really thick headed.

Yeah he told on me and the teacher told me it was immature, but that was it. She was a pretty young teacher though and I was the only senior in Geometry though, and when she couldn't explain something to the class, I usually helped out, so she always let it slide. Like a week later he got smart with me again, so I threw his book out of the window.

Lewis Black · Lewis M.S. Black Joined: 07 Oct 2003

More old man fun today. I went into my old work to pick up a movie but there was this old guy that was complaining about his 2 dollar late fees! What hell? Who complains about 2 dollars? Gad damn and I think it was a pr0n to. Loser! He get thrown to the floor and kicked in head by Lewis-REX and his wallet pilfered! Then I take out his daughter on a date because I hate him and make her pay MY late fees. Then I punch him in face and bomb his house. While kicking his dog. Idioth.

ZG35 · Junior Otaku Gender: Joined: 04 Oct 2003

*cheers on Lewis Black* i may be compassionate, but some people really need to learn basic survival skills. You know like not bitching about 2 dollar lates fees!