WHAT NEXT?!! - One step closer to the edge...

shadokastur · Posted: Thu May 08, 2003 8:56 pm Post subject:

Well here goes:

In the past 4-5 months I've gotten pneumonia twice (Jan & Feb) screwing up my voice even further than it had already been and not having gotten better since, fu***d up my car by trying to drive through what seemed to be a big puddle but turned out to be a 3' deep mini-pool (2 days ago), my wife had a miscarriage (Feb?) and now has an infection that has put her into the emergency room , I could'nt pay my bills because of:
A) A speeding ticket (stupid me)
B) a roommate that can't or won't pay rent
C) an unexpected insurance renewal,
D) emergency room fees from my sickness, my wife's miscarriage, and her current illness totalling more than $2000 because I do not have health insurance
E) etc...etc....etc...blah blah blah...ad infinitum
Resulting in:
A) harassing phone calls from credit card collectors,
B) having one or more utilities (phone & electricity) cut off and having to pay an obnoxious "reconnection fee" to each
C) having to try to calm and comfort my wife (not bothersome but draining because I am running out of comfort and soothing words myself) about her possible sterility and her having to put up with my Mom and her idiosyncrasies and stress from her play rehearsals
D) not being able to pay the MORTGAGE (!!! ) which means that if I don't come up with $3000 by the end of this month my house will be foreclosed on (and with my credit forget a home loan, I tried)
(NOTE: Because of time constraints and me being too much of a nice guy, not to mention VERY STUPID Doh

, I decided to leave my name on the lease of the apartment that I moved out of so that my friends would'nt be thrown out and they've fu***d the apartment so I may end up owing the complex for damages and an eviction fee because now they can't make the rent because they happened to LOSE THEIR JOBS!! Rant

They already owe the phone company $300 IN MY NAME! ) All of this possibly makes it so that we,("we" being: myself, my mother, and my wife) may have nowhere to go except to live with my father in his run-down 2 bedroom house that reeks of cat urine and cigarettes. And as a result of THAT having to put up with my mom bitching about the aforementioned roommate making her lose the house and having to live with my dad (who could be called excentric if he had money. But since he doesn't that just makes him CRAZY!!! Silly

)
Which brings me back to my list!!:
I may lose my job because the company I work for (owned by my uncle) is slowly going under. If not for my grandfather, being the sole investor, I wouldn't have been paid for the PAST MONTH! He's been using his retirement account to meet payroll, bless his heart.
I didn't do well in high school so in order to get my GPA up enough to be eligible for the Hope Scholarship I would have to take some courses at Chattahoochee Tech which I would have to pay for (*for downside see above).
MY CAT DIED!! The one bit of solace and comfort I had died around the middle of last month and DAMN I MISS HIM! Cat

He was the only true friend I've had for the past 7 years and was cooler than most people I know. Some of you may say "Dude, get a grip, it was just an animal!" and to those people I say: F**k Off.

Well, those are the major points I'm dealing with right now. There are other details that just add insult to injury but I'm starting to calm down and don't want to rile myself up again. You guys are all cool in my book so if I have to sell my comp I'll try to visit the library every now and then and use their comps to drop you all a line here. I'm sure I'll have more to b**ch about later so I'll keep those interested up to speed.

To easier times,
SHADO----RAY Ouch

Ganesa says "May fortune shine upon you, Shado!" Sun

:shado: Aw, thanks Ganesa! *hugs*
GEEZ!! I really AM cracking!! I just GAVE A HUG to my imaginary hindu-elephant-god-of-fortune friend! Crazy

Tobias · *explodes* Age: 38 Gender: Joined: 17 Jan 2003

hey man, all i have to say is that i feel really bad for you. If i could, i would try to help you as much as possible, but right now (*reaches into pocket, and pulls out an empty pocket liner) im kind of low on money, me being 16 and all. i hope that my words can help you somewhat through your times of great hardships. And as for your cat: i can imagine how you feel. i felt that way when my 2 hampsters died Sad

Now, i have a ferret, and i know that im really going to eb shooken up when he goes (makes the sign of the cross) may that not happen soon.

Well, i hope that you get yourself up Shado, and that a miracle comes to your aid.

~Tobias (Mike)

Doot · Posted: Fri May 09, 2003 8:18 am Post subject:

Shado... aw hon, I will do as much as I can for you ya know? Even if you don't get Hope student loans don't have to be paid until AFTER you are finished wiff the schoolin.

I'll keep an eye out on the job market as well. I've been checking frequently for other people so now I'll keep an eye out for you too.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE don't tell me that a certain brother of mine was the one who is screwing up your apartment. If so, I think some major kicking of the arsage is due.

I'm here for you guys if you need to talk, need a home cooked meal, need a break. ~hugs~ It will get better.

Ming · DOOM! Gender: Joined: 13 Jan 2003

Yeah man, Doot's right. No matter what happens in life, it always seems to get better. Time's may suck now, but you can't give up. You have to pick you head up, and keep going, mo matter what you have to go through. Sometimes right through the fire is the only way out. I don't know if my words have helped ease you at all, but I do feel you. I consider all you guys at PO good friends now, so I'll definitely say a prayer for you.

Good luck!

~Ming

PS: You definitely let me know when Code*Atom comes out with a CD. I'll definitley buy a few copies to help you out. I checked out some of your stuff, and I like!

Kid Icarus · Senior Otaku Joined: 24 Sep 2002

Jeebus. And I thought I had a bad day yesterday, but it seems you're on a bad luck streak.

*gives you a rabbit's foot*

Hope things get better for you.

shadokastur · Posted: Fri May 09, 2003 2:11 pm Post subject:

Thanks guys..I don'y know maybe I'm just focusing on the bad stuff. Hope seems useless. Time is not an option. I'm not really asking for any help, but thanks a lot, Tobias. This is one of those situations that if one thing gets resolved then the others kind of fall into place. Besides most of this is my fault anyhow and therefore my responsibility. (Beau didn't help though, Doot. But then, neither did Troy). Basically I'm just saying thanks a lot for letting me b***h. Ming, Tobias, Ropponmatsu, Doot...thanks for the encouragement.

Shado

P.s. We might just come over to hang out sometime for a break.
\m/ Rockin like Dokkin!

Sciler · Mistress Age: 45 Gender: Joined: 15 Sep 2002

Aww Ray

~huge hugs~ Well, if I were closer I would offer to help a bit more Sad

I am coming up May 27-29 to visit mom and Rina and stuffs so if you guys wanna hang out or something for a lil bit, that would be super cool Smile

if I have the money, even Ill buy dinner...may be a sackful of Krystals...but it would still be dinner Laugh

Sorry to hear about all the bad stuffs, and no offense, but your mom doesnt exactly have room to talk or bitch at you 2, if she had never "given" you the house as a wedding gift, then taken it away to put it up for sell, then say you can have it again...its bullshit =\ Hope you dont take that as me trashing your mom, i just get so mad at what shes done to you/the both of you, sometimes =\ well, I dont know the phone situation with you guys, but Ill PM you my phone so if you or Mel wanna call me, you're more than welcome to anytime...call me collect first, and Ill call you back so its free Very Happy

I love you guys, and I will pray that things turn out ok. And if you need any help in kicking some asses, I offer my steel toed boots to be used when I come visit in a couple weeks Smile

Katana · Posted: Wed May 14, 2003 11:19 pm Post subject:

Just an idea...a teeny-weeny one, and it may not even work...but I gotta throw it out there, cause...that's the kinda girl I am Razz

I rememmmmmbeeeer when my friend's brother was going to Katsucon, he was pretty much broke, and he set up a paypal donation thing.

Prolly wouldn't bring in a lot, but every little helps, I guess. ^__^

Eh, like I said...Just a suggestion.

Hope everything works out. *huggle*

Selrahc the Evil · true Evil's creator Joined: 18 Mar 2003

Um................Damn well not to make you feel bad or anything but that just blows all my recent teenage problems out the window and on into china.
The only thing in my history that even comes close is the fact that when I was born I pulled my dad out of the military and straight into bankrupcy.(5 open heart surgeries in 7 years isn't cheap). I know that this isn't the same but I just want you to know that if my father could survive that and then being a single parent for 5 years with me my two sisters and two of my cousins in the house, I think that you will make it out of all this somehow. just don't lose hope ok?
I would send you money to help you if I could but right now I can't even get the money for an Otaku.
the closest I can come would be to send you some of my prized Magic the Gathering cards for you to sell off. even me just sending you my five best could most likely get you about $80-90. but any way hang in there and remember we are ALL here for YOU. Very Happy

Mika · Otaku Knight Joined: 05 May 2003

ooooo so sorry, I have had bad luck but never this bad. If you need anything we'll be here and try to remember stuff happens for a reason and you'll be alright VERY soon! I know Ganesa will help! Feel better!
Laugh

~Mika the elf girl