Alone - a feeling worse than the worst

Righty The Wonder Ghoul · Posted: Sat Sep 06, 2003 8:27 pm Post subject:

im not really in a bad mood. i dont have much of a reason to be that unhappy. i just feel incredibly alone right now. i went downtown to see my friends, but couldnt find them. i come home, try haunting my usual chats, no one is there, go on aim, everyone online is away. and suddenly i feel it. i feel alone. and i hate it, i just want to talk to someone, especially two certain people but they are probably out. so here i sit, alone with no one to talk to. and i hate it. i dont want to be at this computer any more, ive been here most of the summer. i can remember the two best nights i had this summer, and i can even tell you the dates. i want it to be those days again, cus i was happy, and had my friends with me. now im by myself. this feeling wouldnt bring so much despair in me if it wasnt a common feeling in my life. you dont need to respond to this, i just wanna say how i feel.

kittenofsences · Otaku Dame Age: 36 Gender: Joined: 30 Jul 2003

:: begins to cry having been feeling the same way for the whole summer and even now::

I feel the same way... cant see the guy I love there is no one there for me like i need(( well he cant be right now)) i dont do the internet thingy anymore and my whole family seems to be gone
I almost started to cry at work today because some guy who was there with his friends(( old man)) looked at me when i came to like clean up the table and he got this weird look on his face and just suddenly ask " are you ok?" I just noded and started to clean not able to even face the question. It so lonely all the stuff

But everyone no matter who you are should know that there is always someone out there who is just waiting for you to make them no longer lonely :anime:

RivaOni · Full English! Age: 40 Gender: Joined: 24 Sep 2002

i still get lonely, even tho im living with my partner, it usually happens whilst she is asleep or at work, and i usually come online to talk to someone, ubt then wehter there are people online or not, i struggle to find something to talk about.

i used be very lonely, when i didnt live where i am now, even when i was with friends i felt completly alone, i felt like i was standing on the opposite side of the room watching them. so if any of you wanna talk to someone, just add me to your msn messenger (if u have it of course) and if im online, feel free to chat to me, it can be anything at all

kittenofsences · Otaku Dame Age: 36 Gender: Joined: 30 Jul 2003

yeah same goes for me
e mail me at yahoo or just im me on aim :anime:

Righty The Wonder Ghoul · Posted: Sun Sep 07, 2003 9:26 pm Post subject:

i have the same problem riva oni. ill talk to someone on aim, and they wont be responsive, and ill feel like they dont like me and i get upset.

mikeypants · Junior Otaku Joined: 07 Sep 2003

I know what your talking about man.

The last few years haven't been that good for me at all. Its been a long and trying time in fact, riddled with sadness and depression. There are times like you where I feel so alone and seperated from world and it drives me to tears. And the problem is that I always blame myself for it being like this and that just leads to me being regretful. Those two emotions should never be combined, cause it makes you hit rock bottom.

Things have been looking up lately though. One day I just decided that I couldn't go on feeling sorry for myself and started to change my life. Once I started to become the person I really wanted to be, I began to feel a whole lot better.

Just never lose hope, things can change as long as you make it happen.

BWS-1 · Otaku Lord Gender: Joined: 25 Sep 2002

Righty The Wonder Ghoul · Posted: Mon Sep 08, 2003 11:14 pm Post subject:

its not your fault. i feel that in thruth my loneliness is due in a large part to my massive paranoia. im always so friggen afraid that other people dont like me or something, im afraid of getting truly close to people. people i have known in life have either treated me like shit, or turned on me in a second. i have made FEW good friends in life, and most of the time those friendships are as fleeting as a shooting star, or the life of something you cherish, but dont you cherish friendships too? i wouldnt know, i rarely have, ive been too busy being afraid people didnt like me. and i hate it. i hate it so much. i had my dad take away my knife, cus i was afraid id keep cutting myself, i have scars on my arms, i wear shirts that cover them up, because they emberass me, they scream out "im unhappy" and i fucking hate it. why cant this shit be over with?

Tobias · *explodes* Age: 38 Gender: Joined: 17 Jan 2003

dude, u just have to ditch that paranoia. I know its hard, but there will be a time when it just clicks off. It happened to me when i got into highschool. I became much more talkative, becuase i stopped caring. I didnt care who liked me or not. I just know that when you abandon everything, you reach salvation. It sounds strange, but when you abandon the hope of "fitting in", you become yourself, and that is what really attracts people. Its the fact that you are unique, that attracts people to you.

That is all Hmmm

Therin · Gloompf. Iggle! Gender: Joined: 24 Sep 2002

Wow, dude. My best advice is to find something to do. Whatever you have to do to keep yourself occupied, do it. Sitting there bored is the worst thing you could possibly be doing.

edit: Tobs it absolutely right, man. The hardest step is always the first one, but if you just say "to hell with it all" and take it, the rest are so much easier, it's almost funny.